OK.....what comes now?

do you ever wonder why things happen?????

I am not one to question things alot....in fact to my own surprise I have to admit that when all of JJ's diagnosis with his heart happened I NEVER not one time ask God why....I never even wondered why and I still don't....not saying if you ask why it's wrong, in fact I think most people would ask why, it is human nature...but I didn't.....I KNEW and know God has a wonderful plan for us and JJ's heart.....

when JJ was diagnosed with Autism...

that was when I "broke"...I cried for I don't know how long....and it wasn't like having an Autistic child was heart breaking, not at all....it was more of how much JJ has fought for his life physically and now he would be in a fight for his life mentally.....little did I know at the beginning of this 3 years ago that I would be fighting for his "rights"...I would be his voice....this has been how God has shown me where He wants me, this is where my heart is, being the voice for children who don't have one...and this is how I learned this was where God was leading me in my life, and one day my career....it is a gift..

it is a wonderful thing that I have a loving God who is right there with me....He walks with me and for me alot with JJ.....and together we do ALOT of battles for JJ both physical and mental...God gets ALL the glory in those....I am humbled He trusts me and uses me....

Another battle has come...and in a very different way....tomorrow I have to go to the school....JJ had a very hard day, but this didn't fall into a "normal" bad day, it is very very different...and it is very very ugly....

many of you know, I like to keep my life pretty calm, and easy going...I enjoy and love the life God has blessed me with....I try to handle things the way that will create the least amount of "waves" or "ripples" in life....I don't like conflict, and don't see a need in it for most things in life....but I know there are times when God ask us to "go to battle" for Him, for His name....and the specific reasons for these battles varies, but He asks us.....

tomorrow I have to "go to battle"...this is not something I am looking forward to, and mostly I would let things go, but not when it comes to my children...

JJ needs me to be his voice, and just as God stands before us to protect us, tomorrow God and me will be standing for JJ...

I have prayed and prayed and looked at any options....but God is very clearly speaking to me, and I know what I have to do tomorrow....

please pray....

I don't know what this will look like or be like, but after hearing my son....and his words describing what happened, I know that for his sake I must battle....

I need God's strength, I need God's wisdom...I need the Holy Spirit to speak through me...I need God's comfort...I need to have peace and KNOW God's plan is in place...and He will have glory in this....I need Him to show me His plan so I can be obedient....

Please just pray......

with all my love for each of you,

rach

"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand"

Ephesians 6:10-13