Today I sat down with a friend, a woman, who has walked with me through some of the most difficult times of my life...
I met her in April of 2004...she came beside me as a mentor, but God used her friendship with me in ways that this world can't begin to put descriptions too...
On September 16, 2003 my beautiful baby boy, JJ came into this world...
he came in with half of his heart...he came in FIGHTING, but he wasn't alone...he had Jesus right there, breathing life into him, keeping him alive...I believe to this day that JJ could see Jesus, that he and Jesus were connected from birth...I know that Jesus talked to him, because in times when I didn't have words, well JJ had peace...it was nothing short of miraculous...
to this VERY date, over 6years later...I can remember that pain...
my chest actually hurts as I type because that pain goes so very deep, and it is only through Christ I can get up and walk through it as I do...
Back to my friend...she came into my life that April...JJ had finished his second surgery..and she was there to walk with me through some unbelievable times...I never knew what God had in mind...
she was PERSISTENT...I didn't want to talk to anyone..I was constantly exhausted, I hadn't left my house except for the doctors offices and hospitals in over 6months and for someone to come into my space was well...rather annoying at the time..
as a Christian I knew God had sent her...I thought really me talking couldn't be that helpful long term..REALLY...
she so ever sweetly walked beside me, and pushed me..and asked me the tough questions..she lifted me to Christ in her prayers...and she never passed judgement on me...
she saw me through 4 moves, and traveled anywhere I moved to visit with me..at least ONCE A WEEK...she never gave up..she LOVED me through all of my growths and set backs....
she saw our family through some of the toughest years...
today I saw it...I saw every step she took..God revealed to me in WHOLE how specifically He used her in my life...and I fell to my knees...
BUT He didn't stop there...He showed me face after face of the people who He has used along the way to come to Him, love Him, desire Him, and GROW with Him for Him....
this passed semester I had so many things go on...tonight is not that night to tell those stories...but they are coming...many of them..and I am excited to share what God has done...
today I am just in AWE..today I am in Love with my Heavenly Father who reached out to me from the very beginning...set out the people in my journey who would lead me to Him..not just to become a Christian..but to intimately KNOW Him..I am humbled by that love...and I worship Him!
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