True Happiness

As CHRISTmas comes to a close..although it just ended yesterday so lights are still up and CHRISTmas music is playing around..I just have to sit...breath ... and take it all in...

yesterday as my children got up and opened gifts...we sung "Happy Birthday" to Jesus..we prayed..we laughed...after the presents were opened and music was going, my hubby started putting the electronic things together for Kel and I helped JJ get his toys out..I just had tears of PURE JOY stream down my face...it was that moment it all hit me..

I am in a point in my life where God has done so much work in me, that there is more of Him and less of me...and I am happy..it is a happiness like none other..

PURE JOY

In the moment as my husband is laughing with our daughter..and my son is laughing because he hears them laugh...that my breath is taken away..

I can't remember a time in my life that I didn't need or want for something..until now..I desire and am so excited to grow with God..I desire my family to grow to know Him..and that is all..

I don't want the better home...because this one has blessed our family over and over..

I don't desire a newer or better car because God has provided us both with dependable ones now..

I love my washer and dryer even the rubbed off paint and rust because it cleans our clothes and does the job..

I have clothes to put on myself and family each day...even when I wish for a smaller size for myself..I don't desire that for the reasons I use too..

now it is only to be healthier to serve God...

I wouldn't trade my old orange chair in my bedroom for anything newer, because it fits me...

I don't complain about mowing our yard, because we have so much room for our children to run and play..and a playscape that when I look at it each day, I am reminded on the miracle of my son (given to us by Make a Wish for those who didn't know)

The stains on my carpet remind me I have children who play freely without fear of ruining something..or my old cat who loved to knock things over..but mostly that my home is lived in and filled with life...

The bags under my eyes remind me of the late nights..and early mornings..but I find them a beautiful reminder of how we all age..and how I am blessed to get up each morning..and that I have children who need me and I need them..so I give a lot of myself to them..

the bills I pay each month...remind me I have a very strong hard working husband who amazes me in how he provides for our family..and I am thankful there is money to pay the bills..and that I have bills, because it means I have a home, car, light, water, gas, groceries..

The knees I have to get down on each day to praise my Heavenly Father for all this and more...to sit in His presence..to know Him..to grow to Him..to be carried by Him on the days I can't walk..to cry out in praise or in tears...to love me no matter if I deserve it that moment or not..and to depend on when needs come knowing that He will always provide..ALWAYS

"Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen." 1 Peter 4:10-11