As I sit and think of what and how to share, "my song" of the year is playing on Klove in the background.."All I know is I'm not home yet..this is not where I belong..take this world and give me Jesus..this is not where I belong"...and I have tears in my eyes..
what a glorious feeling to know that I am foreign to this world, I am not a child of the earth, I am a child of GOD, the one and only <3
I don't know about you, but I get chills as I think of belonging to an amazing Father who created me for His purpose..I have a purpose, not by accident, but by design! Just keeps me in AWE of the love He has for me and for all of us <3
Over the last few months, since Christmas really, God has been pulling on my heart to hear Him, and I would think I did and I would start to walk in the direction of His voice, and then I would hear something else...talk about frustration and sadness...I thought I was seeking Him, and I didn't understand what He was doing. I could SEE Him, I could hear what I thought was Him, I would talk to Him, plead for answers to what changes were happening...and then it came...
God spoke to my husband, and through my husband..and there was no doubts, no noise, no question about where God was leading me, leading our family, and speaking to my husband <3
I would have to say this has been the most beautiful experience I have had...and I can't truly put into words what this means <3 but our direction, not mine, our direction as a family has been shifted..what the time frame looks like is only something God can see, but with my husband leading, we are obedient and patient as we move forward one small step at a time <3
Over the last few months there have been so many family changes as we lead up to this moment, which is so new...but we have been blessed to experience poverty through our daughter who was homeless for the weekend last month, and we cried as we learned our son now has ADHD, but rejoiced in God's Sovereignty...we have celebrated with friends and family in their adoption direction, and feel humbled to get to be a small piece in their lives to be included in this...we have cried as we found out friends who have a child with a similar heart defect would be undergoing a surgery, but we prayed and trust that God holds everyone of His children through everything...we've praised God as we see our son functioning in a classroom, even as he has one to one help, he is there..and as the overwhelming realities sat in with some changes I cried to my husband who graciously stepped up and in where he was needed and prayed to God as He moved me through these things....this last weekend I sat with 200 beautiful women at our retreat and watched God work first hand in one after another lives...laughter, tears, rejoicing, and friendship <3 as we reflected His Holiness and learned what that looks like in day to day life...all while praising Him...and sitting in His glorious truths this last week as new ideas and realities have overturned, I can only feel JOY...and today I dropped off our Bug to go work with Missions in Houston for the week..and I beamed as she text on their way out "I am sooo very excited!!!!!!!!"...she knows God has big plans....
so many more things, but sitting with Him, knowing He is leading...He is showing us where He wants us to go, and with His strength, promises, courage, joy, trust, faith (I can go on)....we are following where the wind takes us ..where His Spirit leads us <3 so while I don't have details to share at this time, I can ask for your prayers when you think of our family, just pray we continue to seek Him, His will, His direction <3
Love Always, Rach
"The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it, but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes. So is everyone who is born of the Spirit."
John 3:8
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