Phone Calls....

I happen to be one of the many people who I know "screen" their calls...if I don't know the number then I don't pick up 9.5 times out of 10...not saying it's good or bad, just sharing ....
so today I had a two of these events..both with their own sets of joy and tears

This morning I received the first of these calls...it was JJ's neurologist calling to confirm what we knew, but is now officially ADHD, and give us the new round of meds we would start with, the follow ups that will begin much more frequently than I anticipated .... but we are moving forward with this and trusting God as He will lead up to what we need to do next. I will share with Spring Break his anxieties have increased, along with behaviors and stress level..so if this is something that will help him feel ok in his own body, then we are thankful <3 This call brings a few tears, but joy in the hope we have to give JJ what he needs...

Then this afternoon another strange number..I almost picked this one up, but decided not too...a voicemail that began "This is___ from Grace with the Houston Missions Retreat, first Kelli is OK, I repeat nothing is wrong AT ALL, she is great"...sigh of relief as my stomach had started to turn...then the beautiful woman on the other end of the line began describing our beautiful daughter, and her heart for God, for people, for missions, for service...and what a joy she has been to this leader and the group and the people...(enter tears and joy here, all in one!) ... what a call, and I have to admit I am so thankful I didn't answer, because I wouldn't have known how to respond, or could've interrupted to comment, or JJ in the background...and now I have this beautiful voicemail of the amazing beautiful description of our Bug <3 and her heart for God and others <3 one that I can play over, and over...and have...a true blessing....
and of course I am so aware everyday that this is such a gift, FROM GOD, and I know I only play a part of being her mom, but I am so honored, and so humbled, because I know she is a glimpse of the abundant Grace that God poured in my life at the age of 16, when everything could have gone awful, God poured His grace on me, and gave me Kelli, who continues to take my breathe away as I see her, and see God changing a legacy <3

Now I don't want to discount the call for JJ either...I didn't hear a voicemail that described how wonderful he is, and amazing...I didn't hear words that shared his gifts, his talents, his blessings to others...no it was a different call, it was a clinical, blunt call that said "This is the medicine he needs to start, on this date, with these follow ups"....it wasn't one where my heart leaped in joy....but as I hung up the call, as I sat in the reality I already knew was beginning...I cried out to my God, and praised Him for His Sovereignty, for His love..and for the gift of JJ..that God trusted us to walk in JJ's journey with him, that God picked us to raise this little boy who seems to have to climb mountain tops to only take one small step, and we were given the privilege to be a part of JJ's life, which has shown us to take every piece of life to the fullest, and enjoy every moment <3 that was the reminder and gift given in this call <3

Who would have guessed as I ended a day filled with busy...that two phone calls, both went to voicemail, would be such a gift a blessing in my day..in my life...two small phone calls to remind me of two of the greatest gifts that God has given me...I am so humbled and thankful by His love, grace, and sovereignty <3

With Love as Always,
Rach
“Only be careful, and watch yourselves closely so that you do not forget the things your eyes have seen or let them slip from your heart as long as you live. Teach them to your children and to their children after them” Deuteronomy 4:9