I feel like our family is in a new "season" of life..
In fact, I know we are!
It has been one with many changes and one with a good amount of stress..and in moments I almost found myself questioning God's plan for our family..I KNOW crazy!
BUT just when I thought my exhaustion and extreme fatigue were at an all time high, and I thought I was going to drop to the ground...
God came in a carried me!
I am reminded of the poem "Footprints in the Sand"
How often do we only look for what we can SEE with our eyes, and forget it is what we don't see, but what we KNOW is there that matters!!
Having FAITH!!
"Faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see"
Hebrews 11:1
God didn't one time look away from us, and our extreme fatigue, and my heart breaking...in fact He was there to get me up each morning and He is here today!
Most of this "stress" to find a simple name, came from JJ's recent school behaviors...along with normal life stress..and my heart was broken each day as I was called, over and over...or when I arrived to get him, he was in the office or had been! This has been such a TRIAL!
BUT as with all trials, God has been in the front line, fighting each of them for our family..and keeping me going day in and day out..for this I am ON MY KNEES, and Praising Him!
About 2 weeks ago, I went to a Women’s Retreat, which I go to each year...this year the speaker was great, and the theme was "Simplicity"!
WOW, could that not have fit more perfectly! I was hesitant to go, and stressed with everything I would be leaving behind, and all of the "JJ stuff" .. but my husband said there was NOT an option, I was going and I needed this! BOY was he right!
I went, and God took me through SO many stages..and showed me where He was taking me and our family! It was beautiful!!
And it was SIMPLE!
I can't put what He shared in exact words..but first and most important
"TRUST ME!" (Trust HIM)
And the rest falls along those lines..but each of the words He spoke to me, came back to that...
"Are you TRUSTING me?"
The truth is I believed I was..I always have..but recently in the last few months, I had taken over, and I (key word) was looking for a plan or solution for JJ, and then for everything in my life..it is contagious..all of a sudden you take over one area, and then you try taken over your own life...
BOY a mistake, and a stressful one...
following the retreat, God has continued to show us that He making changes in our family...and asking us to be patient..this can be hard, but there is NO way I will go back to trying to figure this one out on my own, that never works!
One thing He did do, is give us a direction "clue" .. last Wednesday right after the retreat, I was ask to give part of my testimony, with my sister...
He revealed His GLORY in my life..He reminded me of the power of PRAYER, as the story was shared..and He showed me His unconditional Love in so many ways..it was beautiful, because it was the story of Christ, the Love of Christ, the forgiveness of Christ..the pursuing He does for EACH of us!
This was ALL for His Glory..and He REIGNED over our services this past Sunday...I am so humbled that God would use me, use my "mess" and turn it into HIS GLORY!
This was a small step in the direction He is taking us..reminding us of what He has done and will continue to do..reminding us that we are HIS, and we are here for Him, to serve HIM..and tell the world of His Might, His Power, His love..and His unconditional forgiveness!!!
I am humbled to be loved and pursued in this way..I am humbled to receive love in this way..and I am humbled at the beautiful reminder He gave me..that He has never and will never give up on me..
and I love this new season we are in, one of transition, one of patience, one of love..and one that is taking us into places we have never been...
I am in AWE..and I am so blessed to be able to share this with so many!
ALL for God's GLORY!
"Be STILL and know that I am God"
Psalm 46:10
(This was the verse focus for our retreat!!)
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